Integrity. The state of being whole and undivided. Google's example for it is "territorial integrity". What if you begin to lose sight of things that hold you together? You know the glue exists. You were extremely proud of your awareness of it. But what if you believe that the situation warrants a deviation from your usual route? That you have to behave in a certain way, or at least pretend to do so in order to protect your sanity. And in this race to try to rationalise everything, you tend to forget about the glue. Everything starts to come undone. You question yourself and your intentions. You ask yourself what it is that you hold dear anymore. Where is your belief system? Why has it shattered? Where are the pieces? Do I really have to mirror the other? Is it what everything has come down to - mimicry? But isn't this what is best for you? Is it?
But maybe. Just maybe. And here I try to salvage my starved and dying sense of optimism. Maybe, things have to come undone before they can be put back together. But what is the new pattern? Is there a blueprint? Would it be worth it? Or is this as good as it gets?
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